I’m Elizabeth. My husband, Jordan, and I are 30 year old parents to an angel in heaven named Avery. We grew up in Pennsylvania, moved to North Carolina for college, and had been living in Georgia for a few years when we got pregnant in 2018.

On Mother’s Day we had the biggest surprise ever by finding out I was carrying our first child and since then he has been our entire world. I loved everything about being pregnant with him & felt better than I ever had with him in my belly. On November 9th, at 33+4 weeks, I had a complete placental abruption and my sweet baby boy left us for heaven. Not a day goes by that I don’t feel him with me.

Since then I’ve had blood tests confirm I have Factor V Leiden, a genetic blood clotting disorder. In the initial months after Avery died I was referred to a maternal fetal medicine specialist in Georgia who believed that most likely caused my placental abruption.

I am open about my life as Avery’s mom because not only does my love for him grow every day but I want to be a voice for others moms and parents to know that the babies they lost are not shameful secrets. They are God’s precious children that deserve the celebration all children do.

In 2019 we welcomed our rainbow baby, Lila.

We have fun in this family. We love life & each other. And we thank God every day for the blessing of our babies and all this world has to offer us before we meet our first son in heaven someday.

Thank you for being part of our journey.

I’m Elizabeth. My husband, Jordan, and I are 30 year old parents to an angel in heaven named Avery. We grew up in Pennsylvania, moved to North Carolina for college, and had been living in Georgia for a few years when we got pregnant in 2018.

On Mother’s Day we had the biggest surprise ever by finding out I was carrying our first child and since then he has been our entire world. I loved everything about being pregnant with him & felt better than I ever had with him in my belly. On November 9th, at 33+4 weeks, I had a complete placental abruption and my sweet baby boy left us for heaven. Not a day goes by that I don’t feel him with me.

Since then I’ve had blood tests confirm I have Factor V Leiden, a genetic blood clotting disorder. In the initial months after Avery died I was referred to a maternal fetal medicine specialist in Georgia who believed that most likely caused my placental abruption.

I am open about my life as Avery’s mom because not only does my love for him grow every day but I want to be a voice for others moms and parents to know that the babies they lost are not shameful secrets. They are God’s precious children that deserve the celebration all children do.

In 2019 we welcomed our rainbow baby, Lila.

We have fun in this family. We love life & each other. And we thank God every day for the blessing of our babies and all this world has to offer us before we meet our first son in heaven someday.

Thank you for being part of our journey.

Day 10.

November 19, 2018 /

Ten days since I had to say hello and goodbye to you sweet little man. I keep waiting for this veil people tell me will lift and although I will not get over it, some sense of normalcy will return. The concept I’ve struggled with the most during this tragic time is the term “lost pregnancy”. Lots of books and resources refer to what happened to me as this. I didn’t lose my pregnancy or my baby and I have to get my self to stop saying that. My baby died so that he could go to Heaven to be God’s angel. I was too good a mama to him to ever have “lost” him and I will see him again someday. A lot of others who are trying to find the right thing to say have said “I’m sorry this happened to you”. Even with this pain being just too much to bare at times, I’m not sorry this happened. If this is the only way I have to love my sweet Angel Avery then I couldn’t change it for anything. He has broke open my heart into a million pieces and showed me a kind of love that I never knew existed and now if all I have of him is a corner of my broken heart to love the little boy I never got to meet in this earthly life, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.