a lot of people that have reached out to provide comfort have said “I’m sorry this happened”. Although a good portion of the day I spend drowning in grief, I will learn to live on without Avery here on earth but I would never wish he never happened. If loving him long distance from here to Heaven is the only way I can love him for the rest of my life then that’s how I will love him. I have no other choice but to love him; he grew in my belly doing somersaults with hiccups for nearly 34 weeks this year. So yes I have a lot to be thankful this year because this year made me a mama. Even if I have to be an angel mama, Avery Jordan became a guardian angel to our family this year and will forever be watching over Jordan, Chanel and myself.